It's unfortunate, but there is a lot of baby mama drama in the family. It's stressful on all of us and especially necessary to the babies that are involved and always seem to be stuck in the middle. My mother always commends me and Earry for not having babies at a young age and continue to glorify us for staying on the baby-less path. I became a god-mother at the age of 16....literally the day I was taking my ACT, my god-daughter was being born. I circled random answers just so I could leave and go to the hospital. Still ended up getting a 28. Kennedy Ja'lyn is an amazing little girl.
I know that my mommy wants grandchildren in her life that she knows came from me or my brother and a trustworthy mate. I think that's the dream of every parent. My mom said she doesn't care if I adopt or steal a baby....as long as he or she belongs to me, she's good. I know she's just kidding, but I know what she's feeling. To be in this back and forth drama between a child and their 13 million baby mamas is ridiculous.
I asked my mommy what would happen it I decided to pursue a relationship with a woman and adopted a child. In a nut shell, she said that she wouldn't want to know if I began a relationship with a woman, didn't want to know if I was gay. I kept pushing the issue, trying to get deeper into why she wouldn't want to know who her daugther was involved with. She explained that certain things are meant to be my business. There are things in my life that are currently going on that she does not know about and does not want to know about because she respects me as an individual.
Even though it kinda sucks that I can't tell my mother everything about me, I do respect the fact that she wants me to be whoever I am and not have to worry about being judged or disrespected even if it's by her. I love my mother and I know she will love me always and forever. And it one day I do decide to pursue a relationship with a woman (or a man), I ask that everyone in my life respect that bond that my mother and I have. I ask that you respect her wishes not to know. I ask that you let me live my live and not feel the need to go around and tell my mother everything that I do. She did a magnificent job raising me to be me.
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