.......

My hair feels so freaking awesome.

I went snorkeling while in Nassau and I guess the salt water smoothed out my situation. Lol.

And it's getting so long.

#LoveMyNaturalHair

N*

For. You.

Even if I was gushy....it would have no affect on you. You're an emotionless asshole (sometimes).

But the fact still remains.

I. Adore. You.

N*

Get Into IT!

Still one of my favs.

This song and video gave me LIFE. Nikka is a easy, breezy, beautiful bad bitch.

N*

Sales meeting

I've been at the Palomar Hotel all day for Namaste sales meeting. Great experience.

Surprisingly, I'm happy when I'm working.

That only means to me that I need to work harder.

N*

Every person that I've ever wanted in my life....
Fully, completely, truly
Uninhibited
Has hurt me.

A stranger reminded me of that.
Boldly told me I was a woman scorn.

I know that.

People don't understand how fragile I am. How gushy I am on the inside.

The constant trials and triumphs of life have hardened my shell. Impervious to heat, water, or love.

I know that.

Yet.
And.
Still.
I try to make people feel wanted. I want to be the sweetest person you've ever known. I want my energy to freely flow from me to your entity.

I long for love. I really do. Tell me what does it feel like for someone to just want YOU. I mean me. I have to stay patient. More optimistic than I should be. Getting much better.

Yet.
And.
Still.
I am a woman scorn.

The feeling. Hit me like 6 bricks in a tube sock. The 1st time.... 2nd time....every time.

The stranger hurt me. But told me I was a woman scorn.

I know that.

Balanced

It won't go away anytime soon.

I'm not pessimistic,

BUT

I'm not that optimistic.

It will balance out.

N*

Early Monday Morning

Your fingers laced with mine.
Your scent refuses to leave my pillow.
I prayed that it would stay.
As well as you.
No longer can I be greedy for your time and affection.
I'll use this time and space apart for reflection.

Safe travels.