I have finally finished the book!!!!!
Completely finished.
And one quote stood out to me in which I think certainly pertains to the situations that I am experiencing in life at the moment:
"Why should she give important things and receive nothing in return?"
N*
Friday, March 18, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
The Blacker the Berry
....I've literally been reading this book since forever. I started it...then stopped....started from the beginning...then stopped again.
I would lay on my patio....topless....Pandora playing through my speakers.....reading this book. And I would stop. Too ignorant to make use of the serenity. Not calm enough to just BE. Too anxious to enjoy what was happening around me.
Finally, I'm finishing the book. I've been reading it all day at work. It is surprisingly helpful with getting my mind off another failed relationship. Everyone that breaks up blames the other person....this time I acknowledge it's me. It's always me. Not in a bad, 'I Hate Myself' kind of way. I have recognized more that I need to transition into becoming a better person. I will use my last 2 months in Alabama to initiate that process.
"Haven't you had enough liquor, or are you just trying to settle the ills of the universe?" (The Blacker the Berry, pg. 143)
N*
I would lay on my patio....topless....Pandora playing through my speakers.....reading this book. And I would stop. Too ignorant to make use of the serenity. Not calm enough to just BE. Too anxious to enjoy what was happening around me.
Finally, I'm finishing the book. I've been reading it all day at work. It is surprisingly helpful with getting my mind off another failed relationship. Everyone that breaks up blames the other person....this time I acknowledge it's me. It's always me. Not in a bad, 'I Hate Myself' kind of way. I have recognized more that I need to transition into becoming a better person. I will use my last 2 months in Alabama to initiate that process.
"Haven't you had enough liquor, or are you just trying to settle the ills of the universe?" (The Blacker the Berry, pg. 143)
N*
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Start: 10:28pm (3/16/2011)
Laying in the bed right now.....
Not worried about the world around me.
Candle light slightly glistens in the corner of my left eye.
The computer screen blocks the obstruction of its full flame.
Heart beats fast due to the intake
My mistake
Inhale.
End: 10:30pm (3/16/2011)
N*
Not worried about the world around me.
Candle light slightly glistens in the corner of my left eye.
The computer screen blocks the obstruction of its full flame.
Heart beats fast due to the intake
My mistake
Inhale.
End: 10:30pm (3/16/2011)
N*
#BANG
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N*
N*
Monday, March 14, 2011
Anti-Assisination
Thunder and lightning fill the air
And the sensation of the tingle was your dowry.
It's one thing to hear you breathing loudly
But this time it seemed that your lungs didn't even care.
Rapidly intaking and ingesting that energy
Spewing it back.....
Projectile style.
Not even concerned with the outside,
But the here and now
And somehow
A single shot hits me
POW!
Death is not upon me
It's like reincarnation
Revitalization
This crazy sensation
This inspiration
Begs of me to show you my appreciation
In the back seat of your car.
N*
And the sensation of the tingle was your dowry.
It's one thing to hear you breathing loudly
But this time it seemed that your lungs didn't even care.
Rapidly intaking and ingesting that energy
Spewing it back.....
Projectile style.
Not even concerned with the outside,
But the here and now
And somehow
A single shot hits me
POW!
Death is not upon me
It's like reincarnation
Revitalization
This crazy sensation
This inspiration
Begs of me to show you my appreciation
In the back seat of your car.
N*
Friday, March 11, 2011
Fragility
"Gods are fragile things; they may be killed by a whiff of science or a dose of common sense"
-Chapman Cohen
"Civilization is hideously fragile and there's not much between us and the horrors underneath"
-Carrie P. Snow
"A human life is fragile, but the mind is even more so"
-Unknown
"Freedom is fragile and must be protected. To sacrifice it, even as a temporary measure, is to betray it"
-Germaine Greer
Humanity is fragile.
Praying for tsunami victims.
N*
-Chapman Cohen
"Civilization is hideously fragile and there's not much between us and the horrors underneath"
-Carrie P. Snow
"A human life is fragile, but the mind is even more so"
-Unknown
"Freedom is fragile and must be protected. To sacrifice it, even as a temporary measure, is to betray it"
-Germaine Greer
Humanity is fragile.
Praying for tsunami victims.
N*
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Random things I have thought lately.....
At my darkest moment.....when all is lost, you are at my side.
Bitch...I'm on a budget....QUARTER WATER *in my Nicki M. voice*
I don't care what you do, think, or say....you will never forget me, FRIEND *wink*
I'm camouflaged, my efforts simply vanish.
Salvation depends on the individual.
[I really do think some of the most random things. I know I haven't been writing lately, not because I'm blah or discouraged or unable.....but because I'm focused on school and my future career. A real friend would have investigated my feelings and assisted me in reinforcing positive feeling and poetic thoughts. You failed the test]
N*
Bitch...I'm on a budget....QUARTER WATER *in my Nicki M. voice*
I don't care what you do, think, or say....you will never forget me, FRIEND *wink*
I'm camouflaged, my efforts simply vanish.
Salvation depends on the individual.
[I really do think some of the most random things. I know I haven't been writing lately, not because I'm blah or discouraged or unable.....but because I'm focused on school and my future career. A real friend would have investigated my feelings and assisted me in reinforcing positive feeling and poetic thoughts. You failed the test]
N*
Friday, March 4, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Sigh....
I haven't written in a while. So busy with school and work and projects. Speaking of projects, I officially have a new job. Social Media Specialist from G-Pod which is a multimedia and design firm in Chicago. Basically I tweet and status update all day, everyday and get PAID!!!! I have a project for them now, but I'll realllllllyyyyyyyyyyy be doing it when I get to Chicago. I'm sure I'll be their assistant too. Does that mean that I will get two checks? Hmmmm.......
Amazing art show tonight produced by some of my friends. It's going to be thee most cultured event in Montgomery. If you read my blog and you are in Montgomery, I URGE you to be there. Tonight from 6-9 @ 1466 Furnace St.
Going to New Orleans tomorrow to chill. No, really....like I'm just going to chill. I have absolutely nothing planned except get drunk and be belligerent on Bourbon St. =D
Might be going back next weekend too with my roomie. She said she wants to get away from Montgomery. I'm always down for the cause.
I'll be in Chicago the weekend after that for my wife's stylist showcase. If anybody that reads my blog is in Chicago, I URGE you to be there. It's going to be amazing and much needed. RSVP @ cccculturecouture@gmail.com and I'll give all the info. Oh, it's on Saturday, March 12th.
Wondering what to get my wife for her b-day. Shoes perhaps? Those always make her happy. So excited to see her though. We've both been slightly struggling with life lately. We've really been in each other's corner lately. I really just want to hug her as extra confirmation of how much I appreciate her in my life.
May scheduling: Mommy and Earl get in town May 12th. Last day of work on May 13th. Graduation is May 14th. Getting rid of my unneccessary junk on May 15th. I'll be on the plane back to Chicago on May 16th.
Sigh.....back to work.
N*
Amazing art show tonight produced by some of my friends. It's going to be thee most cultured event in Montgomery. If you read my blog and you are in Montgomery, I URGE you to be there. Tonight from 6-9 @ 1466 Furnace St.
Going to New Orleans tomorrow to chill. No, really....like I'm just going to chill. I have absolutely nothing planned except get drunk and be belligerent on Bourbon St. =D
Might be going back next weekend too with my roomie. She said she wants to get away from Montgomery. I'm always down for the cause.
I'll be in Chicago the weekend after that for my wife's stylist showcase. If anybody that reads my blog is in Chicago, I URGE you to be there. It's going to be amazing and much needed. RSVP @ cccculturecouture@gmail.com and I'll give all the info. Oh, it's on Saturday, March 12th.
Wondering what to get my wife for her b-day. Shoes perhaps? Those always make her happy. So excited to see her though. We've both been slightly struggling with life lately. We've really been in each other's corner lately. I really just want to hug her as extra confirmation of how much I appreciate her in my life.
May scheduling: Mommy and Earl get in town May 12th. Last day of work on May 13th. Graduation is May 14th. Getting rid of my unneccessary junk on May 15th. I'll be on the plane back to Chicago on May 16th.
Sigh.....back to work.
N*
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