The Blacker the Berry

....I've literally been reading this book since forever. I started it...then stopped....started from the beginning...then stopped again.

I would lay on my patio....topless....Pandora playing through my speakers.....reading this book. And I would stop. Too ignorant to make use of the serenity. Not calm enough to just BE. Too anxious to enjoy what was happening around me.

Finally, I'm finishing the book. I've been reading it all day at work. It is surprisingly helpful with getting my mind off another failed relationship. Everyone that breaks up blames the other person....this time I acknowledge it's me. It's always me. Not in a bad, 'I Hate Myself' kind of way. I have recognized more that I need to transition into becoming a better person. I will use my last 2 months in Alabama to initiate that process.

"Haven't you had enough liquor, or are you just trying to settle the ills of the universe?" (The Blacker the Berry, pg. 143)

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