I will....

Never learn.

N*

Who RUN The World.....

Soooo proud of my best friend/brother for putting this together. This was his 1st event with Alize and it was PERFECT!!!

Alizé Mix Squad Launch Event in NYC from Alizé on Vimeo.

Check out the video. These chicks ROCK!!!

p.s. YASSSS Mama Kweli with the pink and white polka dot lip.

N*

Slowly getting back in the groove

This man
Came from nowhere
Fell from the sky
Beyond the somewhere
In an instant
Combustion occurred
Sending domino-effect inspired reactions to reach from the top of my curls to the gray polish that adorns my toes.
No need to worry about the other hoes because this is something I know.
I know and appreciate the tingle I feel when I transfer my energy to his beautiful brown skin.
I know and remember the intensity that the walls and the door and the sheets and the shower whisper about after we left our mark.
I know and need this man.
The combustion keeps me.
I won't forget it.
It won't leave me.
I need it.
I know.

N*

....... 5/23/11 ........

I have so many things to say.

Taryn is giving me the extra nudge I need to post something on this blog.

I'm home. And I love it. I have absolutely loved spending time with my family. It's been awesome.

I'm sitting here while my mom twists her hair and complains that I never help her while she embarks on her natural journey.

Should I get kinky twists? Seems pretty cool. And easy.

I really need to get back on my hair regimen.

The Bulls lost tonight against Miami (series 2-1).

Got a manicure and pedicure yesterday with My Name.....boy did I need it!!!!

Maybe I'll start "working" this week.......maybe not. :-/

I slightly miss Alabama and my two roomies, Kristen and Ciara.

I need to get better at calling people back. SMH!

So much more on my mind, but I don't feel like delving into my complicated and confused mental processes.

Until soon,

N*

5/6/11

I haven't posted in so long.

Clearly more than a week.

Mad busy....but I will post something early next week.

whatev.

N*

Unexpected flutter

Words have become a major part of my life. After connecting with someone last year.....I found that joy again. The voice that I never really realized that I had. Understanding how to put simple words together to communicate complicated feelings, thoughts, beliefs, and values just amazes me. I think everyone has the ability to share through words. After the last person that I dated never felt the need or found the ability to write a poem for me, it really put a damper in our relationship. Communication was not a priority to this person and that's fine, but it doesn't work for me. I love to communicate. I'll tell my true feelings to a deaf man if he is willing to read my lips.

So when Jacob wrote me a poem only after a few days of communicating and enduring the struggles of life, it felt amazing. I can't even describe the feeling. This person is not a poet, but took time out of their day and energy from their mind to effectively communicate with my heart and soul.

I would love to blog what Jacob wrote but it's way too special to me.

N*

People are......

Psycho.

N*

Downfall #243

N*

Memoirs

I am really considering writing a memoir. For myself really. I don't have the most exciting life right now, but I guarantee you that some crazy shit happens to me. This movie called MY LIFE is currently playing a ton of songs right on top of each other. It's jumbled.....can't hear a consistent beat or rhythm.

Yet.....I like life right now. I like the state I'm in. I'm taking life and this journey in Alabama for what it is. Appreciate all the people that entered my world. Appreciate the weather for giving me a great tan. Appreciate the pollen for getting me addicted to Benadryl. Appreciate my roommates for being awesome. Appreciate my family for being so supportive during this time.

Appreciate YOU (whoever you are) for seeing something in ME (whomever I am).

I might start writing when I get on the plane to go back to Chicago. My mommy told me that she just wanted me to relax.....and for the 1st time in a long time.....I feel like I'll just be able to breathe.

N*

Jay.

This person makes my heart flutter.

I felt butterflies for the 1st time in forever.

I've been bold lately.

Made the 1st move.....

Went in for the kiss.

Well worth it.

Peace momentarily.

Ended in chaos.

N*